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  • Rai@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    25 days ago

    Putting my kitty down this afternoon. Almost made it to 20. Very sad. On Xanax though.

    Edit: thank you everyone. He’s gone now. We had an at-home service put him down. He went incredibly peacefully, purring loudly as the first injection went in.

    We’re about to drive him to his brother’s grave (who died five years ago) and bury him there so they can forever snuggle.

  • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    24 days ago

    Sad, sometimes, and a little lonely most of the time. Been through a rough breakup this year. But getting better all the time! Hope you’re well!

    • tetris11@lemmy.ml
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      24 days ago

      Last night I had a mild panic attack for no reason. I think it might have been induced by a mixture of beer and sugar, a combination I don’t do very often.

      I’ve just come out of a long term relationship with someone I thought I would have kids with. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow that wasn’t enough for me and I wanted out. I still have no idea if I did the right thing, but at least we left as friends who care deeply for each other. The separation was slow and excrutiating but I think we’re both on the road to healing.

      I used to think that if two people love each other, that was enough, but I’ve come to realize than I wanted more than just love, I wanted to feel less lonely in my head, and a severe language barrier was preventing that from happening. With time, we might have gotten there, but with time, I also may have grown to resent her, and so that’s why I ended it. I banked on my pessimism instead of my optimism.

      Time heals all, and I guess we’ve just got to tread water until that time comes. Sorry for the word vomit above, your post apparently struck a chord with me

      • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.worldEnglish
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        22 days ago

        Heya man, thanks for sharing. I hope you’re doing okay. That sounds tough, and it’s a hard realisation that love isn’t always enough on its own - relationships take work outside of love, and that has certainly felt like a disheartening realisation for me. It feels the world is a little less magic now, but that’s okay - there are better things coming for us both, that we will be better equipped to handle correctly with what we’ve learned from this. Happy Monday!

        • tetris11@lemmy.ml
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          22 days ago

          Thank you for these kind words, and I hope you heal too or at least find that magic again somewhere.

      • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.worldEnglish
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        22 days ago

        Thanks! I actually did consider it but my landlady won’t allow pets, and if I’m honest I both can’t afford and am too disorganised to take good care of something living. Good suggestion, tho!

  • Coskii@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    24 days ago

    Bored. I’m out on my anniversary tradition, which is going apple picking… Except my other half immediately rolled out the picnic blanket and has been sleeping on me for the past hour.

    It’s sad to think of how the dynamics have changed over the past 10 years between us. It’s almost like the brain hamster wheels have all fallen apart and what’s left are only the most basic of human functions. It’s days like today I wish my country had any kind of worthwhile mental health care.

      • Coskii@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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        21 days ago

        It seem incredibly unlikely anymore. Schizophrenia is a hell of a thing and getting the appropriate amount of support for anything like this that has a spectrum of severity is absolutely not possible. Besides the professional help my other half doesn’t seem very interested in improving their situation at all.