I’ve been wondering if the reason I’ve only seen small results after nearly two years is that while my levels are fine by body can’t do what it’s supposed to. And if that’s the case should I just quit hrt
You aren’t getting zero results. You are getting results, but can’t see them accurately because that’s how being raised in a transphobic society so often manifests for us when combined with mental health struggles
Sky, you talk yourself into so many terrible thoughts. You’re always trying to puzzle out how to fit yourself into a terrible story you’re in the midst of telling. This is the first time I’ve gone through your post history and dug up pictures. You’re cute. I’m jealous of how god awful big your hair is. I see a lot of my neighborhood’s trans people at work. I honestly expected much worse in your pictures. You should focus on building Sky the woman on the inside. Make yourself the person you want to be on the inside. Your body will inevitably follow your heart. Your ego will inevitably shape your form. More esoterically, there are only two things: the Goddess and the leviathan. Thankfully, the creature tends to obey her commands.
I wish we knew each other in person instead of just on this hole in the wall website. You seem like the sort of troubled woman my wife gives me a hard time for constantly trying to befriend.
Everything I see, is someone who only looks like a women holding the camera nearly a full foot above here, someone who at eye level looks like a butt ugly guy in his mid 50s, with a double chin the size of a basket ball.
Forget what you see. Accept that you are currently cursed with illusion. To me you just look like a very, very sad girl. You look like the before in a before and after psychiatry, not HRT. I honestly think you’re kind of adorable. You have a very cutesy, round Midwestern girl face. But the sadness in your photos is overwhelming. I wish I could make you feel safe.
From my understanding how a body responds to HRT is basically down to luck. Changes can be large, small, fast and slow. The chances of seeing large changes might decrease over time but is probably never zero.
One thing to note is that we are often our worst critics. We see all the things that haven’t changed or things changed so gradually that we never noticed. These changes can be obvious to those around us while we remain blind to them.
The question I would ask is do you want to continue taking HRT? Is it causing you an undue burden or harm? Will stopping make you feel better? Will stopping make you feel worse? These are probably things to discuss with a doctor to help you come to a decision.
You have been asking us if you should quit hrt for months now and our answers are always going to boil down to no you shouldn’t. You honestly look fine imo and I think at this point you need to see a therapist because there’s only so much random Internet people can do for you.
We’re all different. Cis women with equal levels of E also have wildly different features, it’s not really something any of us can control outside surgery. It’s your life, and your right to move through the world in whatever way makes you most comfortable, content and assured. Stopjng or continuing HRT is a choice that make you no more or less of a woman, I get the appeal of being free of the hassle of pills/shots but even if your progress is slower than you want it to be, I think letting T revert changes would be more upsetting than staying the course.
But that’s just my 2 cents Hon, you’re still valid af and braver than most for walking down the HRT path in the first place. No matter what you decide, you are worthy of love and respect! ♥ 💕
I guess I’m just disappointed in my results so far, I don’t even know if FFS is a viable option to get where I want to be. Given there is so much wrong with my face.
