I’ve never been this stressed in my entire life. It hits me each morning precisely the second I wake up.
Got laid off from work recently. I don’t feel like finding a new job because I have 10 years of experience and I know I don’t like working for someone else. It feels meaningless. I don’t want to spend my life like that. What’s the alternatine? Well besides the extremely unlikely event of winning the lottery I feel like the only other option is to start my own handyman bussiness that I’ve been “dreaming of” for who knows how many years. I don’t however mean that I have some deep passion for entrepreneurship because I don’t. Not at all. I just feel like it’s the only other option I have and there’s atleast a slight chance that I might like it. Hell, it could even end up being one of the best decisions in my life. Maybe. I don’t know, and I’ll never find out if I don’t try it.
But doubt. Oh so much doubt. This is by-far the biggest and scariest decision I’ve had to make ever. I know I can just end it if it’s not working out and find a job and that’s that but it just feels so permanent. It feels like I’m putting my entire future on the line. It almost feels like risking my life. It’s stupid and I know it. I just can’t help it. No amount of reasoning is enough to fight off my emotions on this. I’m absolutely and completely terrified.
I’ve never been this stressed in my entire life. It hits me each morning precisely the second I wake up.
Got laid off from work recently. I don’t feel like finding a new job because I have 10 years of experience and I know I don’t like working for someone else. It feels meaningless. I don’t want to spend my life like that. What’s the alternatine? Well besides the extremely unlikely event of winning the lottery I feel like the only other option is to start my own handyman bussiness that I’ve been “dreaming of” for who knows how many years. I don’t however mean that I have some deep passion for entrepreneurship because I don’t. Not at all. I just feel like it’s the only other option I have and there’s atleast a slight chance that I might like it. Hell, it could even end up being one of the best decisions in my life. Maybe. I don’t know, and I’ll never find out if I don’t try it.
But doubt. Oh so much doubt. This is by-far the biggest and scariest decision I’ve had to make ever. I know I can just end it if it’s not working out and find a job and that’s that but it just feels so permanent. It feels like I’m putting my entire future on the line. It almost feels like risking my life. It’s stupid and I know it. I just can’t help it. No amount of reasoning is enough to fight off my emotions on this. I’m absolutely and completely terrified.