🏳️⚧️ trans girl (she/her) 🏳️⚧️
New account, same Emma!!
old accounts: Emma@kglitch.social & emma@kbin.sh
Let’s hope this instance doesn’t go extinct like the others!
matrix regular here, vouching for uni: confirmed legit ✨💖✨
looking at your pics, i am unable to even imagine you as anything other than a cute girl ✨🎀✨
and i’m completely serious about my envy 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
OMG WTF!!!
HOW are you this GORGEOUS?!?
that figure! the long thick flowing hair! those legs! and then the dress, bow, and socks to show it all off!!
my envy burns 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
(seriously wtf, you are ✨gorgeous✨)
I’ve checked out fetlife, but it unfortunately requires javascript, which is a hard pass from me. I don’t feel comfortable accessing sites that block users like me. The reason that I use kbin/mbin is because it does not require javascript at all. Account creation and use of the platform are free from that requirement, giving me a better user experience and increased privacy.
Thank you for the suggestion though ❤️
I appreciate the recommendation, but there really aren’t any mobile apps that are compatible with my Librem 5 phone. I run Linux, and I’m not comfortable running “traditional” apps that contain surveillance malware and engage in data harvesting. Social websites generally tend to require too much personal information, and so I feel banned from those platforms. I’m very glad to have access to the fediverse. Without it, I would have nothing.
I’m going to try to go to Pride events for the first time in my life and see if I can find anyone.
Well I’m thankfully close to the Greater New Orleans Area, instead of being totally isolated from blue cities. As a last resort, I might try to work up the courage to go to Pride stuff this year, but I’m so nervous of large crowds of people and evereything being recorded for social media now. If it weren’t for all of the cameras, I might actually be able to find LGBTQ+ people during carnival time.
Thank you for the luck 🍀 😊
Thanks cowboy, and yes it’s been nice.
But I also feel like I’ve been numb for so long that this sudden capacity for feeling, mixed with these new relationships, has just melted me down to my very core and left me more distraught than I otherwise would have been. It’s one thing to be lonely, but it’s quite another to feel so connected and loved by others and yet unable to ever be in their presence. I was more positive when I made my original post searching for friends, but this time I’m just…I don’t even know. I came here to distract myself, and I figured I may as well do this now, call out to the void to save me. But there’s no one coming. I don’t have hope that anything will come of these threads. I don’t think I’m likely to find anyone. I just wish this were all easier. I wish I could just meet my friends and feel a sense of calm wash over me, allowing me to relax and breath easy, knowing everything will be okay. I need to be strong for others, but I also struggle to be strong for myself, and I wish I could just cry with my friends. I’ve cried enough tears in solitude, and I don’t wanna feel trapped anymore. I can’t continue like this; I need an escape from the pain.
Thank you for the reminder for myself and others that read this thread. Yes, I am aware of the dangers and the necessity of public meetings, and I’d probably bring a family member with me if I actually find someone here to meet.
Thank you for the well wishes and support.
You’re in southeast Louisiana? Do you happen to use Matrix? I’d rather not join things like Discord if I can help it, and I’m not really a gamer. My laptop probably couldn’t handle running steam anyway.
Unless you have fuck loads of cash I’d say settle in for the long haul and cope,
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unless you’re like some boomer with a house?
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I take it you’re in the US?
yeah, in the deep south 😢
Is there insurance that covers it maybe?
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Laser, you mean on face or genitalia?
everywhere. i’m pretty much done with face now and have been focusing on genital region. i’ll be doing electro of remaining light facial hairs soon.
i’ve learned some good info from this thread, that laser isn’t technically necessary, that electro is also not technicaly necessary, and idk. i’ve already paid for several sessions, so i’m gonna get 'em done and take it from there.
i wish this were easier. i wish that i could just push the button. i wish it didn’t have to be this way.
thank you for your reply ❤️
My surgeon did electro as part of the operation and I have had no problems over a year out with hair.
Wow, I had no idea this was even possible. I’m learning quite a lot recently.
what surgical technique interests you
I think you’ve already seen my messages about that in one of the Matrix chat rooms. If not, I can elaborate here or there.
how you’re paying
I usually pay for things using cash that I withdraw from my checking/savings.
if you have insurance coverage
I currently have Medicare coverage.
how far you’re willing to travel
If I need to flee the country, I’ll do it.
what your cost limits are
I’m willing to empty my savings and, if necessary, sell access to my body. I need the surgery.
what you think about each individual surgeon
What I think I really need is to actually talk to one or more surgeons in-person so that I can know what to expect, and as I said before, I really don’t wanna be on a waiting list for more than a year. That and the cost are the main reasons I’m considering evacuating to the west coast.
I’m hoping that I can get letters from my GP (who prescribes my HRT) and my Psychiatrist (who knows I’m only interested in the letter), and I figure that the letters do not expire and can be taken out of state if I evacuate. Is this correct?
Thank you for all of the help to start me off in my research. ❤️
If you have insurance now, it might cover bottom surgery.
I currently have Medicare, so it looks like I am covered. 😊
You’ll likely need two letters of support in order to receive coverage: one from your hrt provider and one from a mental health provider.
Well I do currently have a GP that prescribes my HRT and should be able to write me a letter, and I have a Psychiatrist who knows that the only reason I’m talking to him is to get the letter. So maybe I’m all set and don’t need to rope a third person into this to get consent to alter my own body? (I cannot begin to articulate the level of rage that I feel about my lack of bodily autonmy)
and you get the insurance immediately after moving if you are low income
I would guess that I’d need to actually have a residence there right? So like, if I can manage to rent a room, I’m good, but if I can’t find a stable living situation it wouldn’t count as having moved there?
I currently have Medicare, so I think everything should be covered if I can just manage to secure a residence.
damn, two therapists? this gate-keeping of healthcare is really exhausting and frustrating. exhaustingly frustrating. frustratingly exhausting. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
yeah i’ve been doing the laser first just like you said. my doctor that prescribes my hrt is the one who does the laser, and she said i may need the electrolysis after laser is done. well at least for the remaining light-colored hairs. buy yeah, i can kinda work myself into mild panic and stress out enough to doubt myself. like a lot. lol
omg that is so good to know! thank you thank you! that is like the missing puzzle piece that actually calmed my mind about it. i should still get a therapist tho.
A small amount of hairs will always grow back.
Yeah, that’s what I was saying on matrix is what concerns me. Like, I’m thinking I just want the most permanent removal possible. I’m such a perfectionist, and it causes bad thoughts to consider flaws and stuff. I really need to find a surgeon and go over this stuff. Also a therapist would probably help a lot right now…
I’m not sure where you are
I’m in southeast Louisiana. I’ve been doing laser for my whole body since I started HRT, but I’ve only done three sessions on my…delicate region. I’m just concerned about the permanence of laser and the wait for surgery. One of the reasons I’m considering evacuating to a safe state on the west coast is that I could hopefully have the surgery covered by my insurrance.
Was 4 months for the consultation and almost a year for the surgery.
I’ve heard some people suggesting that some surgeons have a wait list of three to five years, and I absolutely cannot wait that long. One year is already long enough to consider.
Thank you for your comment ❤️
If my doctor and/or psychiatrist make me wait like that, I don’t know what I’ll do. I feel trapped here in this red state. And the way things are going in the US right now… it’s troubling. But one way or another, I’m getting that surgery.
even just one