I could really appreciate having an AI assistant like this. As someone who has never found the right support in similar areas to what you are describing something similar to this would provide me with so much value.

If I have any specific input on this, in the coming days, I’ll be sure to share it here

I honestly watch most things with subtitles, as it helps me process the information better, so this is very relatable

Why is this so true

In instances where infantilization is involved, yes. But nowadays I won’t go back to relying on someone who does that to me

Well, since you asked, I will mention some things.

Firstly, I am tired of being infantilized. So many people have done this to me in my own life. People who call themselves friends and family who want me to succeed and do well. It’s makes me extremely enraged. I am very sick of people belittling me in this fashion. I absolutely hate it. Can’t people just give me some respect and autonomy as my own self? I don’t understand the obsession with wanting to control other people. In fact I am very tired of it. I feel people do not respect me.

Secondly, I feel very lonely, and have very few genuine friends. I have some online friends who are good. But very few irl. In fact, I am wanting more autistic friends. I am planning on going to social groups for autistic people. I am hoping this works out for me. I won’t lie, I am nervous about it.

Thirdly, why is finding a job that is suitable to my sensory needs so difficult for me? I am tired of it. I listened to people for too long on what I should do with my life. I bitterly regret doing this. I made a lot of decisions based on what people thought I should do. This was all infantilization, and it was more what these people wanted me to do. I’m really fed up, people suck.

Do you know what model it is? That price is hefty considering the condition. I try to avoid buying old thinkpads over $150AU if possible.

Generally I will try to get them under $100AU. That’s considering that they are usable and in working condition.

If it were a newer model like a T480 I’d be willing to spend between $300-$350AU. But it would depend on CPU and Display Panel used, as well as the condition of it, of course.

You could try figuring out what parts need replacing and seeing how much those parts would cost on eBay, Gumtree or AliExpress (if you’re comfortable with this final option).

Edit: It honestly looks like someone bought a laptop, it got damaged so now they’re trying to get their money back by selling it on FaceBook Marketplace. I’d be careful with this seller.

Yeah, I’m quite angry over the whole thing.

I don’t know anymore. I was thinking a diagnosis would be beneficial. It is already expensive to get done, but I have already paid for it, and done the first session. I’m not sure, if I want to not go ahead, because I’ve already spent $1,500AU. I could have gotten an “unofficial” diagnosis, but I thought that having an official diagnosis would be better. Now I’m not sure what I want to do. Either way, it’s not great.

No worries

Unfortunately, yes. Even though I have my drivers license.

I’ve updated it. Hopefully, that gives some context.

Do pinebooks use Arm CPUs?

Wait, that’s gaslighting? Crap. I didn’t know this. I certainly don’t like being told that. I’ve had to put up with this a lot. I don’t have an answer, but you have given me some valuable insight, nonetheless. Thank you

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Wow! That’s quite interesting

Signing! I do this so often, I don’t know if it get’s misinterpreted or not. But it’s definitely away for me to regulate emotions

I appreciate some of your ideas. The reclaim calendar sounds good. Though, I don’t use Google. But will check if it can work with other calendars.

It’s good I have this community. It has helped me a lot as an autistic adult. It’s murky waters when you’re still waiting for your autism assessment, and don’t have access to resources.

Yeah, you’re correct in your assumptions

Thanks for your comment. I have had a burnout recently. Thought I was recovering. Then I started feeling like this again. I worked a job that took a lot out of me for a long time that I couldn’t sustain anymore. In order to get out of it, I worked two jobs at once. Now I only work one job. But after I transitioned into the new job, I found myself feeling demanded of, because I had to get used to how a lot of things worked. The change was very difficult to adjust to. So I haven’t stopped.

I have also been struggling to keep up with self-care and house chores for months. It’s not great. But honestly, I never found those things easy, especially when having to work in a job that just pays the bills, but offers no fulfillment. I’ve been considering getting accommodations or some kind of assistance with living independly. But I’m still waiting to get diagnosed for ASD. The final appointment won’t be till early April next year.

I really resonated with a lot of what you said. I have not hit the extreme that you went through, but it makes me have to reconsider things. For now, other than taking a lot of time to rest, and talking to a therapist who has dealt with autistic people, I don’t know if there is more I can get right now.

Like you said, I don’t know how to rest. Especially because, I feel like I need to keep going to move to a more fulfilling job, and something that is sustainable for me. Something that will open up things. I have a clear picture of what that is, but it is difficult to rest when I feel like if I do, I will be stuck.